& I should be able to have the power and control over myself,
my thoughts and my actions. But how come I find it hard to do so?
My mood is constantly changing. one minute im all smiley faced and all that and the next second im grouchy and grumpy and whatnot. & i hate it >___<
& because of that constant changes in my mood, i hurt the people around me.
I did not intend to do so & its beyond my control.
I want to stop, I want to change. But its easier said than done :(
A thought came to my mind, if I dont want to hurt those people anymore, I should avoid them. But I think it would hurt them more if I do that. dont ya think? :\
Im lost once again :|
This day should be one of the best days of my life
and I ruined it :( I destroyed it.
Things happened at the wrong time,
Emotions came in at the wrong queue
& my Attitude showed at the wrong date.
Everything was wrong, and it is all my fault.
If I wasnt such a problem child,
If I didn't have this stupid moodswings.
None of this could've happened.
I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore .... but how?
I am the cause of all things gone wrong.
I am the reason for the pain and sufferings.
I am a hypocrite, dangerous to the world.
I am the person I hate.
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